Loving you is cherry pie - Too bad I hate cherries and pie huh?

"I'm so over it I've been there and back"...... I fucking wish.

Today I didn't feel like myself. I haven't actually felt like myself all week. There's too much fucking boy drama that the male species seem to think is perfectly fine. I hate drama, and as boys tend to make everything worse, I thus hate boy drama with a vengeance. I don't understand how boys can be so oblivious to the complete and utter obvious. Take me for example, [I'd never use my friends in an example unless I had they're permission], I've had a week where I just haven't felt like myself and I've been out of character. I feel like certain people are judging me always. No matter if I'm just sitting quietly doing nothing to them or I'm talking to someone else! I have now began to kind of like... pulled myself back in a little bit. I don't get how people can be so two-faced to you and think it's okay? Nah. I don't do two-faced people. Can't fucking stand you! An apology? From you? Nah. You just seem to think that this is okay. To be a really nice person one day and then be a complete ass to me the next day. Where do you get off doing that to me? You don't know me well enough to treat me like that. And now you never will because I don't want anything to do with you. Fuck sake!
Mixed signals is something I hate as well. Isn't it so ironic how a guy can send a girl so many signals that he likes her? But... If a girl does the same to him then he goes and bitches about it to his friends? Can anyone else see that irony? I also don't get how a guy gets off with messing with a girl's head. Not fair. It seems that a girl's heart is just a fucking toy that he has control over for a period of time. Charm. That's how he gets it. Even if he knows about his..erm.. obvious... charm he may not realise the girl on the sidelines that he's charming. I have had two guys fuck off with my friends this week. Even when these two know that I like them. Seriously..Have you's got no consideration for the person with whom you are affecting by doing this? *Que big flashing arrow in my direction*. This two-faced bullshit that I've put up with this week is over now. I'm done with it. When you deicde to grow a pair and just admit you like my friend rather than me, you tell me okay? Fucking idiot.
I actually hand-wrote this blog last night in my kitchen 'cause my mom said that I was being all distant and shit but like serously as if I'm going to talk to my parents about this? Are you kidding me? When I hand-worte this out, I went on a big "lack of confidence" rant and as I've read back over it, as true as it is, I know fellow readers don't really care and you's probably have enough stuff going on in your own lives and thus I shan't depress you on that.

As for me? I don't really know how I'm going to deal with the male species. I understand they think through they're penis' but really? Use your head...as opposed to getting it.
I've got some serious thinking to do.....

Ciao for now
xo